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xoxo ♥ fivefingers | Thursday, 5 September 2013 | 03:43 ©
I just need somewhere to pen this down.
It's been a tiring week to the start of September. I think it has finally dawned on me that i might be taking up too many things and i can't seem to handle or deal with them. Especially when i start to push on myself, it gets really tiring. It's always easier with someone pushing on with you, i guess it doesn't make the whole thing so lonely and you get to share your thoughts about it with each other. Doing it by myself is like giving it all i got and at the end of it, still having to fight with my own tiredness. And it makes things worse when you're already doing your best but someone just have to put you down saying it's not enough. It makes me feel like my efforts are worthless. You know that feeling when you're so physically and mentally drained and you just keep moving without your brain really reacting at all? It's that tiring. And to get negative comments at the end of it... All of a sudden i just feel like giving up and am on the verge of bursting. To add on, there are a load of other things to deal with.
The bad part is i can only blame myself for taking on so much. I thought i can. But the load is starting to get to me. But opportunities are difficult to come by. Not every year you get to do this or that. And piled up with so much being expected of yourself, it's starting to wear me out.
Dealing with my own expectations towards my passion, my grades, time to spend with family, relationship and friends... Everything has their importance but i only have so much time and energy on my hands. I try to fit as much as i can but... I'm just really tired. I've been giving and giving... And it's still not enough...
And this week, someone is really leaving and i guess, that's the last straw. You know how some people are like your pillar of strength whom you always turn to? And all of a sudden that pillar is not going be there, or that near anymore. Goodbyes aren't forever, i know that. But it's just that we can't hang out as often as before... And that kinda sucks. Everything kinda suck right now.
But i keep telling myself... It can only get better from here. I have to push on. I don't have a choice. I have to keep telling myself that I'm stronger than this. This is what i want and I'll get out of it and be better than before.
Bye
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I'm not a superhero.
written on Thursday, 5 September 2013 @ 03:43 ✈
I just need somewhere to pen this down.
It's been a tiring week to the start of September. I think it has finally dawned on me that i might be taking up too many things and i can't seem to handle or deal with them. Especially when i start to push on myself, it gets really tiring. It's always easier with someone pushing on with you, i guess it doesn't make the whole thing so lonely and you get to share your thoughts about it with each other. Doing it by myself is like giving it all i got and at the end of it, still having to fight with my own tiredness. And it makes things worse when you're already doing your best but someone just have to put you down saying it's not enough. It makes me feel like my efforts are worthless. You know that feeling when you're so physically and mentally drained and you just keep moving without your brain really reacting at all? It's that tiring. And to get negative comments at the end of it... All of a sudden i just feel like giving up and am on the verge of bursting. To add on, there are a load of other things to deal with.
The bad part is i can only blame myself for taking on so much. I thought i can. But the load is starting to get to me. But opportunities are difficult to come by. Not every year you get to do this or that. And piled up with so much being expected of yourself, it's starting to wear me out.
Dealing with my own expectations towards my passion, my grades, time to spend with family, relationship and friends... Everything has their importance but i only have so much time and energy on my hands. I try to fit as much as i can but... I'm just really tired. I've been giving and giving... And it's still not enough...
And this week, someone is really leaving and i guess, that's the last straw. You know how some people are like your pillar of strength whom you always turn to? And all of a sudden that pillar is not going be there, or that near anymore. Goodbyes aren't forever, i know that. But it's just that we can't hang out as often as before... And that kinda sucks. Everything kinda suck right now.
But i keep telling myself... It can only get better from here. I have to push on. I don't have a choice. I have to keep telling myself that I'm stronger than this. This is what i want and I'll get out of it and be better than before.
Bye
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The best of friends,can change a frown into a smile when you feel down.
The best of friends, will understand your little trials and lend a hand.
The best of friends, will always share your secret dreams because they care.
The best of friends worth more than gold and give all the love a heart can hold. - Jill
One day,during a room warming, a group of 5 crazy girls decided to create a blog to pen down our daily life and thoughts individually. Why five fingers you may ask. The reason is because, one day while taking a group shot infront of a mirror, we noticed our height resembles the fingers. ( Lame i know but wdv )Our group name changed for quite a number of times alr, we originated from SPGS (not sarongpartygirls hor) So anyway, this blog will be updated by daily basis accordingly to our "positions"
The thumb, Gene will be blogging on Monday. Index finger, Xiuwen (axw) on Tuesday. Middle finger(so crude LOL), Huimin (heemii) on Wed. Ring finger, Candice on Thurs and lastly our pinky Carmen on fri.
So yeah, do check us out on a daily basis! Cheers! :)
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